stressed yet in love

I cannot believe that I (we) will be married in five days. 5 DAYS! That is 12o hours! Plans are all coming together but each little piece is creating stress. Stress is just my body's response to handle external (or internal) "difficulty that causes worry or emotional tension" (dictionary.com). As much as my cognitive understanding allows me to see the situation objectively - my inate worrisome personality screams, "Mindy Mindy Mindy, get it together." Though each step of the way I have been prepared and organized, there are now hundreds (literally, I am not exaggerating) decisions to be made. My current job at MU allows me to cruise along with very few sitations that question or seek explanation of my decisions.... yet this wedding has given me numerous opportunties to grow and allow my decisions to be questions, opionion to be altered, and discussions to ensue. All of life is allowing me to grow and expand my thoughts by questioning and full discovery. Maybe thats why I am orchestrating this celebration of my wedding... it to grow. God, give me the patience to get through this week, so that next week will allow my life to resume to normal. What is normal? Who knows, but it is about planning a wedding 24/7 while still happy and living in the moment! Mantra.... The celebration of the wedding day event is simply to welcome us into the married world. The marriage is the imporant aspect, not the ceremony.

All that I know for sure is that I adore Nathan.

wink wink

I have a secret... wink wink

here's a sneak peek

one wish

If I had a wish....

I would take a giant snowglobe,

Fill it with sprinkled magic dust,

Insert this stone statue from the Carriage Trail,

Place this special memory of three happy kids playing and laughing,

Swish and shake to keep it forever.

these things I know

These things I know today....

- cottage cheese taste better with peaches on top

- the last few cold days of spring are the hardest to bear

- the remote is always lost when I am most tired and just want to watch tv

- Missy ordering porkchops just to be sent home with me is heavenly leftovers

- two little fellas starting baseball tomorrow is all American

- reminder that I am to marry in 8 days is delightful

- hugging Harry after a month of missing him tonight was worth the wait

- white wine is the only wine to be enjoyed with popcorn

- the purple crocus reminding me to just hold on for warm weather does help

- seeing Nate carry a chair for another woman makes my heart warm with his chilvary

- making up the guest bed for Julie would have been easier had I not been skipping and whistling

- our home feels warm with lots o'kids packed in

just breathe and relax

i am waiting for the day that i can sun with reckless abandonment.

nothing required and no worries allowed.

chance created this whole experience based on his idea

how do we lose that reckless abondement that allows us to just do what feels right?

It is a constant struggle to do what society says is right and what I deeply feel is right?

So... I challenge myself to be as Chance.... what feels right?

What exactly exemplifies my beliefs? I will strive to demonstrate that!

WV Times.... best sellers list

Possible Book Title from the Allenger/Eplings best sellers List...

NonFiction Feature List

= How to Potty Train and Still Have a Life

= Learning to love your partner's Ex

= Top Five Places to Picnic in Charleston

= Wedding Planning for Dummies

Fiction Feature List

= Life without Mom or Dad on Monday's at 8:00 pm

= Duh?

= Diary of a Wimpy Cat

= Are you there God, It's Me Mindy?

going bold

If I were brave, what would I be doing?

Would I be hiking the Apalachian Trail with Nate?

If I were brave, would I be speaking in front of even larger groups about my love for reading?

If I were brave, would I be sky dive in the cool mornings?

If I were brave, what would I be doing?